WHAT TRUST MEANT TO ME

Life is short. Forgive quickly. Love truly. I still remember these words which were told in the end of a movie I watched recently (I am not sure of the movie’s name).

Everyone seems to live in a world of their own besides the world we live in. One’s world has one’s families, friends, dreams, goals, all that you love doing and want to do someday and everything that’s close to one’s heart. There are many you would imitate, enjoy being with, love dearly and even trust.  I remember a friend of mine quoting from the Deccan Chronicle- these days enemies are as good as friends cause the word called Trust does not exist anymore. Does it exist?

There were times when I thought I could trust none than my own self. There were reasons for this principle that I once followed like- what if my friends spill the beans? How long would my friend stay true? Times change and so do people.  How it hurts when someone so dear turns against you. Well, even if shared things with my friend, is she going to help me out? Would she understand? She can’t put herself in my shoes, right. So, play it safe by not pinning your hopes on mortal men.

Though my so called ‘principle’ seemed good for a while I realised I was heading the wrong path. When I tell I don’t trust those around me, what do I do then? I used to treasure everything in my heart; everything I mean every hurt, pain, emotions…that I hardly did CRY.  I turned so impassive that I never gave way to my feelings. I did not want to feel them or face them. I always thought I had a hard stone like heart; real solid that would never melt. I hated getting emotional because once I start emoting I thought I would be led by those mere emotions.I hardly gave a thought about ‘me’ on the inside. One of my best friends told that I follow the mind rather than the heart. I am sure my friend was right. That was me at that time.

I endured hardships and tough times… all the time thinking I was alone on the road that I walked.The Bible says, ‘He who trusts in himself is a fool’. What a fool I was! I should say I was not really living life. I never bothered to care about the little heart of mine. There came a time when it could no longer hold everything I tried suppressing and it began melting slowly…that was the moment when I cried till everything was flushed out and poured out my heart to the Creator. If you had watched the movie Walk to Remember, you’ll remember the ‘Cry’ song. I often listen to it. The chorus: In places no one would find /All your feelings so deep inside /Was then that I realized /That forever was in your eyes /The moment that I saw you cry. It reminds me of the moment I cried. I still love that moment. Tears did clean my eyes on one hand. On the other hand I began looking through my Father’s eyes. I put my trust on one person called God. He will never leave me or forsake me.

 I Peter 5:17 says ‘Cast all your anxieties on Him for he cares for you’. So, my friend, don’t carry your burden alone. Just trade them to the Saviour, who loved you so much that He gave His life for you. Greater love has no one than this that He laid down His life for His friends. Truly, I never knew what love was. Love and hate were not in my dictionary once cause I did not know to love or hate others (though like and don’t like existed). His love taught me to love everyone and to hate evil. Don’t turn impassive. All your pain, hurt, emotions… whatever be it, feel it, face it. TRUST in the One who will never FAIL you.