One's Longing, Worthless to Another

 It was a usual day at work when a young lady inquired at our registration desk if she could meet the Obs/Gyn Consultant. It was well past the OPD timings (2:30 pm) and the staff explained that she could go to the Emergency Room if it was an emergency or meet the doctor the following day. As she insisted she wanted to consult the doctor, the staff inquired further, and she was quite reluctant. I was in the same room as the staff and the only woman in the room at that time when she called out to me and said, "Can I talk to you in private?" I went out to meet her. With a smile, she said, "I want to abort." She pointed out to her one-year-old son, held in his father's arms, and said, "Uski wajhe se hi mujhe karna hai (he is the reason I want to abort). While a sea of thoughts flooded my mind, I politely asked if she had bleeding, etc.—any complications that might need immediate intervention just to ensure whether her case was urgent (I am not a medico). "You can decide after consulting the doctor", I ended the conversation and requested her to come the next day.

Well, that conversation lasted a few minutes, but that moment continues to linger. Of all the staff, why did I end up having that conversation with the young woman? A soul that has been longing and waiting for the fruit of the womb is listening to another that doesn’t want it or, rather, wants it destroyed or killed. Yep, killed may be too strong a word, but that’s what you call it when you want to take the life out of a living being, isn’t it? And there are words like ‘unwanted or unplanned pregnancy’, ‘medical termination of pregnancy’, ‘abortion’, etc.

The views expressed here are personal, and I am fully aware that one may "Agree to Disagree". The rights to a woman’s body are hers, and she has the choice to do anything with it, be it terminating the life within her. Oh Really? My views solely spring from my beliefs and faith system, according to which I believe that it is God who brings to life and it is God who takes. So, I fully embrace any living being born into this world, however, they may be born disabled, mentally challenged, etc. I have been around a Grandma, who was differently abled and confined to a wheelchair for most of her life until her death, as well as a mentally challenged person whose family is still taking care of the perfect gift that God has given them.

I wanted what she did not, and this is not a stance of coveting or envy like wanting to go on a vacation where my colleague had been. This is just a longing of the heart, which I've often prayed would be taken away if other-hood is His plan. Could it be that the responsibilities and gifts in life—the gift of life in itself—that we often desire to relinquish or run away from could be someone’s longing? At times, that which we want to dispose of or give up could simply be someone else’s want or longing.


 

 

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